Questioning One's Choices

Posted on Sun Sep 25th, 2011 @ 3:28pm by Ensign Matthew Lessly

Mission: Episode 2.3 - "Hippocratic Oath"
Location: CSO's Quarters
Timeline: MD-01, 1520 hours

OOC Lessly: A significant portion of this post is "internal" dialogue spoken aloud. I'm hoping it makes sense... but thought I'd give you fair warning.

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[[CSO's Quarters, USS Pandora, MD-01, 1520 hours]]

Matt walked back into his quarters after his lunch with Jesse (NPC). He had wandered the halls for a while, thinking things over in his head, trying to figure out what happened, what to say, or if to say anything. Without having much luck, he returned to his quarters in hopes of unwinding a bit.

"What happens if I don't tell him?" he asked himself. "He'll probably be able to tell... he can read my mind even if we're talking through the monitors." he answered, beginning to pace.

"But if I tell him, then the relationship will change..." he responded to his answer.

"It's not like he could blame me, he's cute... and we haven't even..."

"No no no, that's no excuse," he interrupted himself, "' because we're a couple hundred lightyears away from each other' isn't an excuse."

"Okay, okay... it wasn't like I planned it though. It just slipped out... and it's not like anything came of it... other than lunch." he continued, trying to make sense of it all.

"So, what? I tell him that I made a mistake and that there's nothing to worry about? Or I tell him I had lunch with a new crew member? What do I tell him?"

Matt sighed and fell onto his bed, his uniform jacket unzipped and his legs dangling off the end of the bed. "Why did I do it?"

Slowly, Matt's mind began to wonder back to earlier that morning. He had just finished approving some experiment proposals and was on his way to the bridge to watch the docking when he ran into Jesse. They had said hello and, as the two parted ways, Matt had a sudden urge and asked Jesse to lunch on the station... the same station he and John (NPC) had eaten lunch at the last time they had seen each other. For one reason or another, Jesse said yes.

Rolling over and reaching towards the nightstand, Matt grabbed the framed photo of John and rolled back over onto his back. Looking into it, his face saddened and he said "I'm sorry, John." and wrapped his arms around it in a hug.

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Ensign Matthew Lessly
Chief Science Officer
USS Pandora